When God is not near

I constantly find myself angry with God for things that have happened. The past year is no exception. As I've fully made the transition from kid life to adult life, God has thrown huge and excruciating obstacles my way (and if He isn't the one causing these things to happen, He is at the very least allowing it). I am by no means denying the goodness, grace, mercy, and lovingkindness He constantly shows me. Nonetheless, I often feel burdened with great disappointment (and even anger) in the midst of anything good that may happen to me. The past year was the most difficult of my two-decade life (yes, even trumping the devastating break up of my ill-fated junior high romance) and I simply don't understand for what purpose it all happened. After disappointment I can usually reflect and see the lessons, discipline, and Fatherly love that each situation exposed. Not this year. Is it okay for me to be angry with God? Not just okay, but is it Biblical?

It seems natural that I would turn to David for guidance in this area. David writes in Psalm 13:

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
And every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
My enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
And my foes will rejoice when I fall. (vv 1-4)

And then in Psalm 22 he writes:

My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me
So far from the words of my groaning?
O my God, I cry out to you by day, but you do not answer,
By night, and am not silent (vv 1-2)

These are just two examples of multiple pleas from David throughout the Psalms. Was he angry with God? Absolutely. However, if you continue to read through the end of the Psalms above, David ends on a note of knowing God will return with grace and lovingkindness. My faith in this promise for myself is thin. I feel that all I can do is plead for God to restore this faith in me.

God, remove my wickedness in not believing in your promises. Restore my faith. Please ease my burden, and do not turn your face from me any longer. If there is a lesson in all of this, God, reveal that to me so that I might praise you for your discipline and guidance. Amen